Michael Newton wrote Journey of Souls, and I started reading that book 3/4 years ago because three people recommended it to me, which was a definite sign. But the concepts of that book were too much for me to cope with and my resistance was enormous. So I dived into lighter topics which were connected with spirituality and physics, psychology and anthropology. Gary Zukav’s The Seat of the Soul, is a book which I adore, and he mentioned a lot of things which Newton did as well but Zukav did it gentler, so I went back to Newton but I again felt huge STOP. So I read Joshua David Stone's Soul Psychology and Caroline Myss's Anatomy of the Spirit, but I was still far away from Newton's Journey, and I still don't understand why. Then I tried with Jane Robert’s channeled book Seth Speaks; and I had the same physical reactions: total no, no, I am not handling this very well, which is weird because Jane Robert’s channeled Seth’s words in the The Nature of Personal Reality, and it is still not an easy book to read but I read it. It takes time since it's huge and the pages are mind blowing so I read a few pages every few weeks.So, I tried with Michael Newton again and now it is more a psychological barrier than it is anything else. I get the kick of my brain; it connected the initial feeling with the triggering. So OK, I will let it sleep little bit more because I understand what it is that I couldn’t grasp: how diverse death is. How diverse after-life actually is. Because for half of my life I thought, oh I die and I go into light. How dull. Even as a kid I never considered going to non-existing place called hell because of my non-existing sins, which I never accepted although they are the core of my traditional religion.But then, as an adult I don't use words like SIN, MISTAKE and VICTIM in my vocabulary so I ease my life this way too. And after-life as it seems is multitudes and multitudes far away from being simple and copy/paste experience. I do think life really is made of simple truths but look at the state of our collective consciousness; simple truths don’t sell and people don’t buy simple truths. But life is supposed to be joyous and experienced as a journey of creating and manifesting through your intention, focus and thoughts. Remembering about the best version of yourself that you are creating instead of victimizing yourself because of the life’s cards. The EGO is a fucking brilliant puppet master, so no wonder that the Planet is in the state as it is. Chögyam Trungpa said that enlightenment is ego's ultimate disappointment, which is a sentence that makes me LOL properly OL without the fake LOL. Sai Baba said that God equals man minus ego. So, the ego is a non ending topic wherever you go, especially in our western countries which cemented ourselves with belief that we are our EGO. I’ve been reading handful of spiritual books and when I began I had this avalanche of information which were drowning me. I deliberately overdosed myself month after month (year after year) because this is how I molest myself; I give myself too much so eventually I just start accepting different perceptions and thus change myself inevitably because I am a change junkie cause after you decode the synapses of the brain, you are able to accept and change and advance yourself in any field. And in the beginning it was, WTF, I just want to let it go, just wanted to forget all about it and have my little blanche and superficial life; but I am not made of those stagnant and barren seeds. In the beginning of my waking up and discovering conscious living, Jiddu Krishnamurti said one of the most important quotes of my life; at the time I was still living Catholic religious mindset (but I was slowly going off the grid), with symbols and a wagon full of fear and it took me about a year to decode this quote and to stop being angry because how dare he. Yet, you can only be afraid of what you think you know, and the constant assertion of belief is an indication of fear and religions know this perfectly, it is their profit. Religions narrow mind with fearful obeying while Universal messages of love, unity and grace which were spoken and promoted by ascended masters (who come from the same place) of every later cultivated religion, are forgotten within the religious context – because organized religious corporations need definitions and categorisation, separation and diversion. They need your belief, they need you commoner to trust another commoner who thinks he knows the true God while saying those fear covered gospels of separation. Free minds and spirits are not encouraged because life truly begins when you ask the right off the grid questions; like, am I not a particle of God itself? Why am I covered in sin nonsense and shame if I think that I am worthy? Ascended masters were born in different times of our history and they spoke the same LOVE/LIGHT/GRATITUDE truth with a different narrative context as they expressed themselves differently BUT with the same core message. No speech of hate, diversion, violence and separation BUT connection, peace and acceptance united with Universal Love. You have chosen to come here to Earth to be joyous and to remember what it means to choose with free will how to manifest your life as you are particle of Oneness. No such shit as sin. No such shit as I condemn you. No such shit as my God better and my God creates bigger and better abundance. No such shit with you are lesser. No such shit where a commoner in his high tower tells me how to live my life while slaving me, exhausting me, murdering me with his holy book. The problem with humanity is not having personal responsibility. So Jiddu said, when you call yourself an Indian or a Muslim or a Christian or a European, or anything else, you are being violent. Do you see why it is violent? Because you are separating yourself from the rest of mankind. When you separate yourself by belief, by nationality, by tradition, it breeds violence. So a man who is seeking to understand violence does not belong to any country, to any religion, to any political party or partial system; he is concerned with the total understanding of mankind.Nathaniel Branden, one of the leading psychiatrists of our time said, ''when beliefs are arrived at not by a process of reason but by faith and alleged revelation - when there are no objective criteria of knowledge to appeal to - those who think differently are often perceived by believers as a threat, a danger, capable of spreading the disease of nonbelief to others. For example, consider the typical religious response to atheism and other religions. If one has arrived at belief in God through some authentic personal experience, one would imagine that an appropriate response to those not similarly advantaged would be compassion. Instead, more often than not, the response is hatred and violence. Why? The answer can only be that the atheist or believer in different God, is more experienced than the initial believer so all others are recognised as threats. Yet if the believer truly feels not only that God exists but that God is on his or her side, then it is the atheist, not the believer, who should receive kindness and sympathy, having lacked the good fortune to be touched by the experience of his or her Divinity. In all holy books, all the Gods are more compassionate, kinder and open to nonbelievers.''In all holy books they are. In our realities they are not, because the teachings are misinterpreted because separation is a great field to earn war money and to prolong the collective deep sleep. It keeps the industry going and it helps to clean the population. Lovely Rage Against The Machine have a beautiful song on this topic. Those sweeetly sick motherfuckers. :DI've tattooed Alan Watts on my body and I adore Ram Dass videos: I've spent days of my nights listening to him in my bed and laughing hilariously in awe. I respect Neale Donald Walsch’s work so much, because it is gentle and wide opening and balming and constructive and it's a blessing. It changes your perceptions and it calms existence. This is my kind of non-aggressive anarchism and love for life. Be fully aware and present and love life and others so radically they wonder why. It is an on-going process with numerous ups and downs but it is worth it. Because books like this show me that it is worth it.